And I've got nothin'. Nothing, that is to write about.
You'd think with all these lovely boys running around, I would have lots to write about.
Not so much.
I feel like I've spent the past couple of days trying to: 1. keep everyone happy 2. not cry because I feel guilty because I cannot afford everything they want to do/ have.
As you can imagine spending the days that way is not enjoyable. In fact, it's making me downright cranky!
I don't think my mom worried this much about making my summer vacation fun and memorable. I was happy to play. I remember going to the beach once or twice a summer (and I grew up in a lake resort town). I played in the sprinkler, rode my bike, ate popsicles...and I remember summer being fun.
I worry that my boys will remember that I didn't take them to amusement parks and bounce houses and buy them a bunch of new video games. And I feel badly. Do they need this stuff? No. But....all their friends are doing and getting and going. What will they write about in their, "What I did over summer vacation" essay?!
Maybe I'm fostering this spirit of discontent and gimme attitude by trying too hard to give them what they want. In my heart I know what they need is far more basic and down to earth and lasting.
The other day we went to the park and as I watched them run and yell and pretend something, I found myself smiling (despite worrying that I was getting the evil eye from the parents of more docile children). They were being kids, playing with abandon and joy and imagination and that's what I remember from my childhood...and that's what I want their summer vacation to be about.
While I hope to take a trip to the amusement park, I also hope to make this break memorable because we're together enjoying each other's company and experiencing the wonder of God's creation as a family.
Not to mention, by the time they head back to school, they'll have a new baby sister...and if all else fails...the dreaded, "what I did over summer vacation" essay can be a birth announcement. ;)
Praying you have contentment and joy this summer.