(Mercy Me- "The Little Drummer Boy")
Last night, I shared with you that I am supposed to be writing papers for school (still not finished, by the way, bad Stacey) and I was struggling.
I have a confession. I might be a wee bit of a perfectionist and I might over think things and perhaps my perfectionist tendencies sometimes impede my ability to begin or finish tasks which I feel may be....imperfect.
The Husband has pointed out that I have modeled this particular trait so well that the oldest boy might be a wee bit of a perfectionist himself. It is not something I am proud of.
I wish to be proud of my work and what I produce but this morning as I was driving to MOPS listening to Mercy Me sing "The Little Drummer Boy" I got chill as I always do when they sing, "Shall I play for you? Mary looked at me and nodded, the ox and lamb kept time. I played my drum for Him. I played my best for Christ. I played my best for Christ." That lyric gives me goosebumps. I played my best for Christ.
All at once I was convicted and freed. You see, at first I started thinking about all the ways I fall short of best, all the things I don't do well enough. I don't do them well enough in my eyes. I am not the best at them. Convicted through my faults and failures and less-thans.
And then, I realized, God doesn't ask me to be the best He asks me to be my best. Second confession of this post, I had tears in my eyes along with the goosebumps and the hair that was standing up on my neck.
That friends, is how I was freed. Freedom to serve as only I am created to serve is doing my best.
So whether you're writing papers for school or teaching, no matter what you're doing in your life, all you are asked to do, all you are called to do, is your best with the big things and the little things. Whether you're rich or poor, playing a drum or bringing frankincense and myrrh, if you are bringing your best, He will smile.
So today, I will focus on doing my best, and bringing my best to all things.
Praying you can relax into your best, too.
-Peace and Love