Thursday, February 2, 2012
I was driving, listening to a pastor speaking on the radio (Not something I normally, do. Usually I like to sing along.) and he was talking about fear.
I am sure I've mentioned more than once that I tend to operate in fear mode a good part of the time. It is something I'm working on but I have been struggling with it a lot.
So the pastor said he was going to give 5 scripture verses that the listeners could write down and refer back to. I was at a red light, reached in my purse, found a pen (act of God in itself. LOL), and waited. The light turned green before he was done, so I admit to writing on my hand while driving. This also accounts for not being able to read all of the writing.
part two...because as I sat down to write about giving my fear to God more fully...
the phone rang and my life turned upside down and turning over fear to God became, "If I do not act, something really awful could happen." Fear became the driving force in my life.
Is this Satan taking a foothold? Maybe. I know there is a battle going on and I feel like a spectator without even the words to speak in prayer. I am reduced to the short phrase, "Please help!"."Get behind me Satan."
The other day in a devotion written by Lisa Harper (Lisaharper.net, "Marie Mondays") she wrote about remembering that God was the one holding the sword to slay the dragons. She has the best imagery. So I am here right now, trying to hang out behind God while he wields the sword and hope He's got it covered.
Right now I am struggling with it so if you have a few spare prayers...I'd appreciate them.